Thursday, December 23, 2010

just

Matti's friends brother passed away, over thanksgiving it triggered some emotions in her, it brought up things she felt when you died, and how her friend felt and what he is feeling. she was six when you died, maybe i should of got her some help when she was little to help her deal with this. please if ya have the time give her some comfort.
merry christmas just
go give'em heaven
love and miss you

Sunday, September 5, 2010

a vent


I want to talk to you.. and you answer me. Ok. i am feeling like no one understands how i just want to hold you again. In my arms, and tell you all that has went on. Trent adopted tyler and they went to the las vegas temple, matti is at the new school, gracie is in the 4th grades. I hear songs on the radio and think oh justin would love this song, then i get mad , i am mad just, really mad. i don't know who i am mad at, but i know i am mad. I need to get over this, so i can focus on others. Someone ask me if i cry everyday, i said yes that is why i wear water proof mascara, at one point each and every day there is a smell and picture and thought comes to me, and i think of all the what if and the would haves. i want you to know how proud i am of trent and toni. they are doing really good. and tyler is big and tylie says hi dad. i don't know why i am tell you all this cuz. i am sure you know.but i love you and go giv'em heaven love you mom.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

justin

this week has been kinda blah.... it has been 7 years on the 25 th of june that we said goodbye to you for two years, in three days it will be 5 years that you came home from your mission. hmmm i miss you more than any thing right now. my buddy.
love you
go give'em heaven

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

new field house

hey just
went to the baseball auction, they showed us the new field house. oh my, my thought was you would of loved it, you would of never came home. the poor coaches arms would of fell off, throwing you grounder all night.
love you
miss you
go give'em heaven

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

gracie's letter to justin

GRACIE GAVE ME A CARD FOR JUSTIN, THIS IS WHAT IT SAID... "DEAR JUSTIN, I NEVER GOT TO SEE YOU, WELL I HAVE BUT I WAS LITTLE. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. DAD SAID YOU USE TO SCARE ME AND MATTI WITH A MONSTER MASK. MATTI IS GOING TO SIGN UP FRO BASKETBALL OR SOCCER. SCHOOL IS GOING GOOD, I LIKE TO WRITE BUT I MESS UP A FEW TIME...S. YOU HAVE A LOT OF STUFF, AND I KNOW NOW HOW TO TALK TO YOU BY PRAYING.

I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING WITH MATTI WHICH MAKES ME MAD. I KINDA OF TOOK OVER YOU ROOM, I AM SORRY FOR THAT. BUT WHEN I DIE I CAN SEE YOU. I LOVE DIET COKE. BUT MOM DON'T LET ME DRINK IT OFTEN. HAVE YOU MET DIANLYN, WELL WE BABYSIT HER DOG. I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
LOVE GRACIE
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SPRING


SPRING IS HERE, I LOVE IT JUST BUT IT BRING BACK A LOT OF MEMORIES OF GOOD TIMES. I SEEN SOME MISSIONARIES IN THE BIKE STORE YESTERDAY, I DON'T HAVE THAT NEED TO CRY AND RUN AND HUG THEM LIKE I DID RIGHT AFTER YOU DIED, SO I GUESS THAT IS GOOD RIGHT. WELL I WENT THROUGH YOUR ROOM, THAT IS A FUNNY STORY. I REALLY DIDN'T GET RID OF MUCH JUST SORTA KINDA TRANSFERRED UP STAIRS, SO I CAN GO LAY ON THE BED AND STILL FEEL YOU. I KNOW WEIRD HUH. WELL I HAVE A LOT TO SAY. DON'T HAVE MUCH TIME TO SAY IT.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

HMMMMMM

IT HAS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I POSTED. I WOULD THINK THAT BY NOW IT I WOULD GET USE TO THIS. BUT THEN I SMELL SOMETHING THAT JUST TRIGGERS IT. THEN I START THINKING ABOUT THE WHAT IF'S. I MISS HIM.